Kelly and I
were much in need of a break and have anticipated this trip for months. Away
from work, ministry responsibilities, family, and friends; we needed time to
soak in each other and reconnect as a couple. We made a pact to limit cell
phone use and keep our focus on God and each other, and be replenished. We had fun
dressing up for “evenings out,” gazing into each other’s eyes, and uninterrupted
talks about whatever came to mind.
As is often
the case, the enemy took this opportunity to plant seeds of guilt and doubt in
me, to steal my joy. After conversations with staff about their long hours and
months away from family, I began to feel guilty they were working so hard to
provide the luxuries we enjoyed. It didn’t seem fair they couldn’t take a break
and get a little rest too.
And what
about the people on the islands we visited, who work hard to earn an income, yet
make far less than the average wage in our country? And what about those who can’t
afford to go on cruises, or choose to spend their vacations doing mission work.
Is it right to enjoy such exorbitant pleasures when there’s so much work to be
done for the Kingdom?
I don’t know
if you struggle with these questions or if you are able to enjoy the blessings
God bestows on you with gratitude and ease. For some reason I have a hard time
relaxing. Sounds ridiculous to admit, but I feel guilty if I’m having too much
fun.
I certainly
don’t know all the answers, but as I talked to God throughout the trip and even
after our return, I have listened for His response. The word that keeps resonating
is balance. Work balanced with rest, ministry balanced with times of refreshment,
healthful eating balanced with occasional treats, giving balanced with
receiving - all in joyful service with grateful hearts to the One who makes it
all possible.
I know God
supernaturally supplies when we don’t have the resources to meet situations
when they arise in life - whether wisdom, energy, patience, finances, or
whatever. But He also tells us in His Word to come away with Him and be
refreshed at regular intervals. Just as airplane personnel tell us, we must don
our own oxygen mask before helping others. It occurred to me that can also mean
breathing in the pleasures God provides without letting the enemy spoil the
gift. Then we are free to return to the work He gives us with renewed vigor and
enthusiasm.
What are
your thoughts and experiences along these lines? What helps you find balance in
life?
So glad to know & see you two together enjoying time abroad.
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